Another Year

I’m so sick of feeling sorry for myself. I’m tired of not having any confidence. Why do I beat myself up about the smallest things? I am an amazing, independent, strong, beautiful, talented, creative, smart, unique, passionate, and extraordinary individual. I’m so blessed, and I neglect to see it almost 24/7. It’s time to stop my insecure ways. Here and now, I’m making a pledge. I’m going to start taking care of myself, because I’m worth the hard work. I’m going to have the conviction to do things I would otherwise be scared to do. I’m going to take some chances, learn to live a little. I’ve been so protected in my shell. It’s time to make some changes. I’m a powerful woman. I can do whatever I set my mind to. I’m going to stop caring what others think, because as far as I’m concerned, only two opinions matter right now: God’s and mine. Next year is my senior year, and I’m not going to sit by and watch other people have all the fun. Nope, not going to happen. This leads me into my next topic; New Year’s Resolutions.

1. Lose weight – yeah, I know, on everyone’s list, but I’m serious about it.
   a. Go to the Legacy Center at least three times a week.
   b. Hire Hannah as a Personal Trainer.
   

2. Apply to three colleges before the end of next year.



3. Take the ACT and get a 30 or above (out of 36).



4. Go on lots of dates (may or may not require a boyfriend).



5. Go to my first real concert – no Kim, the Backstreet Boys concert didn’t count.



6. Acquire many scholarships (I guess I need to work on apply for them as well).



7. Make Editor-in-Chief on my school newspaper.



8. Publish something I’ve written.



9. Continue developing talents such as photography and music.



10. Be more positive – Smiley faces are still my icon.



11. Don’t worry so much – relax, things will work out.



12. Own a car before my next birthday – everything paid off.



13. Get everything SUPER organized so I don’t have to worry about losing or forgetting anything.



14. Say, “I love you,” more to friends and family – they know it, but need to hear it more often.



15. Stick with all of these goals until Thanksgiving at the very least.

Wow, it’s amazing what you can sometimes end up writing off a whim. Happy New Year! :]

The Finale

Well, Christmas is almost finally upon us. Bronson is still itching to open all of the presents under the tree. He gets to open one later, but I'm worried he'll get a taste of it and won't want to stop. I'll admit that I'm excited, too. Our family has been tracking Santa through www.noradsanta.org. It's been a tradition for a couple of years now.

Also, be sure to check out this site. It's got some good Christmas pics. www.animationbackgrounds.blogspot.com/

Well, I wish you all a Merry Christmas. Have fun spending time with your families. I know I will. Don't forget that, I love you all!

Also, don't forget, the birth of our Savior, and the big reason we carry on with this over commercialized holiday; the spirit of giving, loving, and kindness. XOXOXOXO

'Twas ALMOST The Night Before Christmas

I found this picture on that cool website again. It's perfect for today.

I've got extreme writer's block today. Sorry, I would write more. I can tell you my plans for Christmas, however.

Ok, so Christmas morning we usually wake up at 7:00, and I get dragged out of bed by my siblings. We open presents from Santa, then the presents under the tree. Next we get to play with our toys for a few hours, then we go to my grandparents house. We usually stay until 7:00 or 8:00 and then we get to go home, play with more toys, and get to clean up our lovely, messy house.

Wow, I'm so out of it. I feel like I'm lost somehow. Hmmm... Interesting. I'm going to watch some movies with the family.

Frosty the Snowman

Frosty the Snowman
Originally uploaded by *Sakura*

So, I like to look at flickr.com at the photos and I came across this. Can you believe only four more days until Christmas already. I know I can't believe it. It went by extremely fast. Well, I have to get ready to go to work. Blah.

Will It Ever End?

I feel so swamped. Would you like to listen to my daily schedule?

• Get up and get ready -- a chore in and of itself for me. I'd rather sleep in.


• Go to school -- nuff said.


• Go home and do homework -- not enough time to do it before I go to work.


• Go to work -- exhausting.


• Get home -- finish the homework I still have to do.


• Go to sleep -- and salvage the 4 hours I have before I have to wake up and do the same thing again tomorrow.

It's not fair. I hardly ever get to be with my friends anymore. My pals are having a party on Friday, and I can't go because I have to work. Our schedules never work out. This time is supposed to be the best time of my life, and I barely have time to go out and celebrate it.

I've been feeling very ambitious lately. I have no clue why. For example, today I said hi to this kid I haven't talked face-to-face to since last year (and whom I've liked for a consecutive three years now. I know, I'm pathetic). I actually have the urge to ask someone to the next dance. This is the fifth day in a row I have worn make-up. So I have to ask myself, why the sudden change? I actually think I know the answer. I've stopped caring what other people think about me. Hooray! Just kidding. I care, but not to the extent a teenage girl usually does. Interesting.

Well, I need to pass out newspapers for class. joy.

Over and Over

by Three Days Grace

I feel it everyday it's all the same

It brings me down but I'm the one to blame

I've tried everything to get away

So here I go again

Chasing you down again

Why do I do this?

Over and over, over and over

I fall for you

Over and over, over and over

I try not to

It feels like everyday stays the same

It's dragging me down and I can't pull away

So here I go again

Chasing you down again

Why do I do this?

Over and over, over and over

I fall for you

Over and over, over and over

I try not to

Over and over, over and over

You make me fall for you

Over and over, over and over

You don't even try

So many thoughts that I can't get out of my head

I try to live without you, every time I do I feel dead

I know what's best for me

But I want you instead

I'll keep on wasting all my time

Over and over, over and over

I fall for you

Over and over, over and over

I try not to

Over and over, over and over

You make me fall for you

Over and over, over and over

You don't even try to

Slightly Embarrassed, Mostly Proud

As most of you know, we (my dad mostly) likes to rock out our house for Christmas. What can I say? The guy is dedicated. Take a look.

Pretty crazy huh? Oh well, at least you can tell that our family has LOTS of Christmas Spirit. Each time our lights turn on, or each time I turn the corner coming home from work. My mind automatically starts singing "Hallelujah! Hallelujah!"

As you might have already seen, I was at the Eagar's House and we took some pretty amazing pictures. Since I'm not allowed to post any shots of people (since you can tell who they are) I have decided to cheat a little bit. See, I went home and took more pictures of me with the make-up still on.

Ta Da!

We'll see what my mom says to that. I'm not trying to me a brat, but there are some rules that I don't agree with. In fact, she should be glad this is the farthest extent my rebelling ever makes it to.

Well, since I feel like I have a lot to talk about today, I think I want to show you my Christmas List.

1. An iPod Dock -- Finally!
2. A Dwight Bobble Head -- Freakin' Awesome!
3. An iPod Armband -- Easier to exercise with.
4. A Bookshelf -- preferably big, I like to buy books.
5. A Barnes and Nobel Gift Card -- again, I like to buy books.
6. Gilmore Girls and Smallville Seasons -- should be self explanitory if you know me really well.
7. Hairspray and Nancy Drew movies -- both put you in a happy mood.
8. iTunes Gift Cards -- always useful.

I think that's about it. I feel like I need to do something creative, but if you'll excuse me, I'm exhausted and don't have the energy to get creative juices flowing through my brain. Maybe later in the week.

Short Blurb

I danced with him today in my ballroom class, and I didn't trip all over myself like the last time I was partnered with him. It was fantastic. He has a great smile. (See the following picture to see how I currently feel.)

Song Pick

This is one of my new favorite songs. I've bolded the parts I like. Enjoy!

When I'm Gone Simple Plan

I look around me,

But all I seem to see,

Is people going no where,

expecting sympathy.

It's like were going through the motions,

Of a scripted destiny.

Tell me where's our inspiration,

If life won't wait,

I guess it's up to me.

No, we're not gonna wait another moment in this town.

And we won't come back your world is calling out.

We'll leave the past in the past,

Gonna find the future.

If misery loves company, well,

So long, you'll miss me when I'm gone.

You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.

Procrastination, running circles in my head.

While you sit there contemplating,

You wound up left for dead.

Life is what happens while you're busy making your excuses.

Another day, another casualty.

And that won't happen to me.

No, we're not gonna wait another moment in this town.

And we won't come back your world is calling out.

We'll leave the past in the past,

Gonna find the future.

If misery loves company, well,

So long, you'll miss me when I'm gone.

You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.

You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.

Won't look back,

When I say goodbye.

I'm gonna leave this a hole behind me,

Gonna take what's mine tonight.

Because every day, becomes a wasted chance.

You're going to wake up feeling sorry,

Because life won't wait,

I guess it's up to you.

No, we're not gonna wait another moment in this town.

And we won't come back your world is calling out.

We'll leave the past in the past,

Gonna find the future.

If misery loves company, well,

So long, you'll miss me when I'm gone.

You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.

You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.

You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.

You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.