Done

i can't give you what you want.
all you
feel
see
hope
dream
can never be real.
now i realize
i can be
beautiful
happy
strong
smart
without your love.
all you do is
take
tear
break
leave
what you manipulate.
i may be hurt, but i
don't need the
fears
scars
tears
love
of someone who will hurt me.

Agenda

Today has been an amazing day.

Would you like an agenda?

4:30 a.m. Woke up with enough time to shower. I would normally not be so excited about this, but the strange fact remains; I actually got up this morning.

6:15 a.m. I danced with Jake again. Ahhh…

8:36 I finished my math homework in Sign Language (we were watching a movie).

9:10 I find out I’m not the only one who received a 21 on the ACT. Takes a load off my chest.

11:14 Hanging out with friends at lunch. That always makes me feel better.

12:20 Received most of the answers for my chemistry homework. Now, I can diligently study for the test on Thursday.

1:53 Finished my math test with ease. I feel secure enough about how I did.

2:20 Indirectly flattered by something (even though I don’t think it’s true).

2:48 Received my books from Amazon two days early!!!

4:41 Finish an amazing book. The Book Thief if any of you are looking for something good to read.

New Story

Check it out; I was bored last night and started to write a story. An idea finally hit me. So, I will show you what I have, and to all of my adoring fans, tell me if it has potential. I'm still not sure about it. I was just excited that I was able to think of something for a story. Anyway, let me know what you think.



He asked me what I thought of solving mysteries. What kind of a question was that? Here we are, new neighbors, I'm batting my eyelashes, and he asks me about mysteries.

"I'm no Nancy Drew, but I'm not opposed to being caught up in something to solve."

"Good. Because unless you want to be scared out of the house, just like every other tenant that's lived here, you'd better get to work."

"This house?" I acknowledged the old pile of bricks behind me.

He nodded. "Yes. Have you not heard? It's the only exciting thing that's eve happened in this town. Well, besides the time when Mrs. Lavender accidentally set her house on fire when she was cooking."

"No, no one has bothered to tell me any stories about this town. Would you mind filling me in?"

"Okay, it all started when Mrs. Lavender forgot to take the fork out of her mashed potatoes..."

My eyes rolled. "No, not Mrs. Lavender. The house -- What's so mysterious about the house?"

"Oh, I'm sorry." He smiled, " I thought you wanted to hear the intriguing story of how Mrs. Lavender put out the fire."

"Uh... no, not really."

"All right. Well, I'm afraid I must save the story of your house for another time, anyway."

"What? You were just about to get started on a story. Why should this one be different."

"Because the story is different, Anna."

He said my name and for reason, I stopped breathing.

"You'll hear the story from me, soon. There are a few things that need to happen that will prepare you for it."

I exhaled.

"What kind of things?"

"Oh, you'll know. I wouldn't want to spoil the surprise for you." He smiled again and took one last look at the house for the night. "See you later."

He straightened his body from the fence and continued down the sidewalk.

21

Well, even though the scores haven't been officially released to us, I was able to look it up online.

One word:








RETAKE

My Cold

feeling too sick

to say

much of anything.

tonight i

am worrying about

resting and

getting better for

school tomorrow.

this cold seems

to enjoy

seeing me suffer.

Light

I'm starting to get sick again. It's going to suck because I can't miss school anymore this term; my grades are bad enough. Anyway, here is my attempt at creativity today.

blinded by fate
kept in the dark
hated by him
sick with fear
no hand to hold
sitting alone
cold with hopelessness

light shows through
a figure presents
kisses my forehead
stands me up
lets me follow
gives me optimism
can guide me back

Single's Awareness Day

Okay, all you lovers out there; I give. I had something brilliantly written about how stupid and commercialized this holiday has become, but when I arrived at school, my attitude changed. I saw all the couples that were holding hands and the boyfriends that had given their girlfriends teddy bears and balloons. My heart sighed, and I gave up my arguement...for now.

Happy Valentines Day for all of you lucky people who have someone, but for me, it will still be Single's Awareness Day. Have a LOVEly day!

White Out

Geez, I hope everyone's okay. A huge white-out of snow is all over Utah County right now. I was trying to drive home from work, and it is a nightmare outside. All I can say is thank goodness I have my loving parents who were worried enough about me to call in while I was at work. AND they let me drive the beautiful Ford F-150 truck with 4 WHEEL DRIVE!!! This is the one time you will never hear me complain about driving that thing. All right, well, I need to calm down and stop shaking, so stay safe when you are driving for the next couple of days.

Lost Again

i saw you in my dreams last night.

you held my hand; it was simple and sweet.

there was no sign of worry in your eyes.

nothing held you back from being with me.

words were never spoken, but nothing needed to be said.


then i woke up, and you were gone.

i felt the cold remains of your shadow.

missing your touch never felt so isolating.

i remembered to realize i must live my life without you.

i must go back to reality without you.



Yeah, so I had this dream about a certain guy the night before the ACT. I must say, I've never seen a better omen the night before a test. It was strangely calming. Ah....

Anyway, the ACT, I did okay. The only section I finished was the writing section, (surprise, surprise) which doesn't even count to the overall score. I will probably have to take it again, which is all right since I know what it's like now.

Oh, I finally have pictures from California. It's the link under "Links of Mine" over on the right, and the title is "California Pictures". So take a look at those, if you would.

American Idol

Okay, so this is my newspaper article about American Idol for this month's edition. I must say, I don't entirely feel this way about the show, but there are some feelings there. Okay, enjoy!



As most of you already know, American Idol has resumed its reign on television for the seventh season. For some shows, that’s already one too many seasons, but for this show, there is no immediate end in sight.

For me, I am one of the many who thinks this show NEEDS to abdicate its throne. Yeah, it was a good show when it was starting out, but all good things have to come to an end sometime.

Think about it. Only two or three of the six winners have gone on with success. Even those competitors that didn’t win but were able to extend their careers for a time have been dropped. Is it really worth going through all of the trouble just to gain a new pop-star?

Take Ruben Studdard for instance. Where is he? Why, if he became this fantastic star, has he been dropped from valid existence? The same goes for Fantasia Barrino and Taylor Hicks. There is one thing in common with all of these idle idols: They rose and fell along with their hit singles.

Now for the other side of the spectrum, Kelly Clarkson and Carrie Underwood have had outstanding success. Both have received multiple platinum albums as well as some Grammy Awards.

Don’t worry, I won’t forget about Jordin Sparks. Her single Tattoo is played all over the country. However, if you ask me, she’s going to end up just like Ruben, Fantasia, and Taylor: following her single around until it drags her down. For now, I’ll keep listening to Chris Daughtry and any other fantastic performers who get voted off the show for no good reason.

Ha! This bashing thing is kind of fun. I wonder what I could come up with when Presidential Canditates' reputations are on the line...

The Return

I'm back from California. (Insert curse word here). Just kidding. I'm glad to be back. I'm just REALLY tired. The vacation just didn't last long enough. I'll come up with something creative later. For now, please just let me sleep. ZzZzZzZzZzZ......... Oh, and I'll pictures hopefully by next time.